A Day Alone

After spending a day off in my apartment, alone and only online, watching TV and such... I've decided I'm rather unhappy with my physical self. Its not a secret that I'm among some of the more rotund Americans that seem to be featured in the news every week or so, normally on whatever slow-news day they've got going on. I don't consider myself morbidly obese, not yet anyways. But, I do need to loose that weight. And it has so many benefits, but first I need to stop putting stuff in my mouth.

Eating is my habit. Its one of my lusts, and one of the things I love most. But, I over eat- chronically. Partially its from the fact my father did it, I think- though in the end it really comes down to boredom and loneliness. When all I'm doing is sitting, watching TV I get bored- and put things in my mouth. Things that taste good are better than things that don't. But, today I need to make a resolution to myself for a few reasons:

1) My Eating habit has grown expensive. I can't afford to eat out ever meal like I have.

2) The food I eat out is bad for me. Fast Food isn't good for you at the rate I've been eating it at, namely every day.

3)I'm unhappy with the way I look. And the way I feel. While I've got a lot of self-esteem (I think) There's still things I'm unhappy about myself. This is one of the big ones.

4)I don't want to lack behind my physical development with my spiritual or mental development, indeed I do believe the reason I'm so unhappy with myself is the rest of me has gone on to better things, and left my physical self back to when I was on medication and eating just to feel something. I need to break those habits.

Just as I really got those things into my head, I got a few other things: How can I change my habits. I decided to not change them totally. I'll still eat when I'm bored, but I'll eat carrots instead of cookies. For lunch, I'll come home and eat here. I've got Tuna fish, and bread and salad and fruit. And I love all those things, why am I not eating them? Laziness mostly. But now, I'm going to do better, I think. Or at least try. Maybe I should post a before picture, and in a few months get you an After Picture. Thoughts on that?